A LITTLE BACKYARD MUSING
Doing this from the yard on my Blackberry so please bear with me here.
This weekend has been stressful. Likely stress brought on myself, but nonetheless, stress is stress. I'm still in a drawing rut. It's likely the heat I've been working in every day for the last two weeks. I'm worn out by the time I get home. Drawing becomes more a chore when I've been physically worked over like I've been lately. Weekends offer little opportunity as I'm with my boys while the wife works, usually days.
I've yet to find any satisfactory conclusion to all this. Maybe I need to spend more time in the studio instead of trying to draw outside or in our bedroom. I likely need to just stop being tense and allow it to "happen". Start out doodling and such.
I don't make a living from this. At the moment, the MOST I could do bookwise is to set it up and then direct folks to purchase online. No money really for shows. Only a bare handful of shows I can even do.
Frustrating. I have comics in me to do. I just wonder what the point is anymore.My wife assures me I've done a lot, more than many people. I don't think it's having "prestige" or being "validated" I need, tho' obviously like most people I am susceptible to those needs. I've FELT those needs.
I know folks who work full time do comics as a side gig. Post weekly on the web, maybe do a collection here or there and maybe one or two local shows a year. Also know people who've done the nigh impossible and made comics or art a full time gig.
I turn 42 in nine days. This I know should have little bearing on the proceedings of making comics. Maybe it's the crush of age. The presence of mortality strong over me lately.
I'm not sure if this constant rambling is good for me or if many even care enough to answer. It's just "Jay doing that bitchin' and whinin" thing. At least I'm able to lay it down here.
This weekend has been stressful. Likely stress brought on myself, but nonetheless, stress is stress. I'm still in a drawing rut. It's likely the heat I've been working in every day for the last two weeks. I'm worn out by the time I get home. Drawing becomes more a chore when I've been physically worked over like I've been lately. Weekends offer little opportunity as I'm with my boys while the wife works, usually days.
I've yet to find any satisfactory conclusion to all this. Maybe I need to spend more time in the studio instead of trying to draw outside or in our bedroom. I likely need to just stop being tense and allow it to "happen". Start out doodling and such.
I don't make a living from this. At the moment, the MOST I could do bookwise is to set it up and then direct folks to purchase online. No money really for shows. Only a bare handful of shows I can even do.
Frustrating. I have comics in me to do. I just wonder what the point is anymore.My wife assures me I've done a lot, more than many people. I don't think it's having "prestige" or being "validated" I need, tho' obviously like most people I am susceptible to those needs. I've FELT those needs.
I know folks who work full time do comics as a side gig. Post weekly on the web, maybe do a collection here or there and maybe one or two local shows a year. Also know people who've done the nigh impossible and made comics or art a full time gig.
I turn 42 in nine days. This I know should have little bearing on the proceedings of making comics. Maybe it's the crush of age. The presence of mortality strong over me lately.
I'm not sure if this constant rambling is good for me or if many even care enough to answer. It's just "Jay doing that bitchin' and whinin" thing. At least I'm able to lay it down here.
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soul of the family of mankind
these are weird times, and they have been growing that way, incrementally, for quite a while from my view. since you were 12, i'd say.
art as a business makes automatons (i.e.; hacks, or hackwork) of artists, who generally work from novelty.
http://deoxy.org/creative.htm
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the current state of affairs vis a vis the comic book biz has grown over years as screwed up as all else. more and more indie artists are moving to self-publishing than ever, all across the globe.
see
http://www.tcj.com/a-survey-of-internat
and maybe
http://www.tcj.com/an-interview-with-ja
and... well, there's a bunch from tcj.com i could point to about the current bizz -that's what TCJ is about, fer sure. i bring them up though with regard with an indie artist faces these days in terms of marketing what they've done, and such initial doing in the first place.
economics suggests we look at our time cost-effectively. this is already a waste of time itself, and is a novelty-as-enterprise killer. literally. corporate exploitation of actual art isn't cost-effective, so all we have in terms of marketing is ourselves.
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http://www.matrixmasters.net/salon/?p=5
marital factors are always right in the artist's face to begin with, and i believe that's the biggest immediate external concern that an artist cannot and should not put aside. involving such realities *in* the art is tricky, requiring more than finesse. i've come to believe no artist should marry until they've reconciled their creative imperative with their economics. with that said however, given one is indeed in the conundrum at present, the best thing to do *may* be to depersonalize their lines of creative inquiry. i have no idea how this can be done; one has to live in the world one makes with one's spouse more than in a world of one's own, given family comes first. as it should. the damnable experience some times though is losing one's mind in the conundrum before anything else...
http://zuma.vip.warped.com/twidth.h
talent which is death to hide
http://zuma.vip.warped.com/itz/
the creative imperative
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assaying all these things can be revelatory and creatively fruitful, socially speaking. the less personally one works, the less personal impetus there is to the creative work. i believe this is the goal we're being herdchuted towards.
freedom of thought hangs in the balance. given the very sovereignty of the individual as a given is more under attack than ever, 'family' values are the weapon of choice. one must remember what a family is comprised of in the first place: souls.